To Love Or Not To Love...THAT Is The Question

Have you ever just missed someone so much that your stomach is sick...really really sick? And then you talk to them (even online) and you just get this hollow ache all over. That's what I've got right now. Just missing someone so much that you hurt everywhere. What do you say to them? "I miss you and it literally hurts me really bad"? No...you really can't. You just feel numb and sick and achy all over. Like, I'm talking about someone you know and you're friends with and you see them...but you just realized how much you miss them? That's what I've got. It's awful. It's awful but it comes from loving people...you love and care for people and you open yourself wide up for hurt and pain and missing them like crazy.

So now is the time to decide. Is it worth it? If you love...you're gonna have so much pain. Maybe more pain than good times. Maybe more painful memories than good ones. Maybe more days with that hollow ache in the pit of your stomach than happy butterflies. But whether it's a sister, a parent, a boyfriend, a best friend, or anyone...you're gonna experience it. Love and pain. Good times and bad.

There will come a time when everyone realizes this more acutely than any other time in their life. That's when the biggest decision of your life happens: to continue loving or not. Or at least, that's when you think you have a choice. I thought I had that choice. And I chose to become a wallflower...a quiet nobody. Someone who is unnoticed and unloving. One who didn't care about the little ant who struggles with the big piece of food or with the butterfly who hurt one of its wings.

But the thing is...we were created to love. We weren't created as cold being who shut themselves off from the world. We are born crying, sure...but we are born ready to love our mothers (and eventually fathers). That bond that we have with our mothers is formed even before we are born...it's her voice and touch and smell and everything while we're in the womb. Before we even breath in air, we love. It is natural and first nature to us. We love those who love us...we love those who do us good...we love so much. But the real challenge is to want to love. Love those who do us harm...hurt us...over and over.

Harm is bound to happen...hurt...pain...it's all inevitable. People are fallen and so even if it's unconscious it is bound to happen over and over. But we must move on past it...learn and love. This post went way out from where it started...but I guess what I'm driving at is this: Love hurts! Love hurts so bad...whether it's missing a friend you just saw the night before...missing a sister you don't get to see anymore because she got married...missing friends who have grown out of touch...missing the innocent child you used to be...it doesn't matter! Because (as cheesy as this sounds) love is what is the best thing in the world.

Even if there is one good moment to every ten bad moments...even if one person loves you back out of ten...it's worth it! Love is so powerful! It is a huge blessing. It's our nature! Alright, now I can hear you say that our sin nature is also our first nature. However...God gave us our love nature...we sinned and was given the sin nature. Difference = huge. So yeah, this is just a little cheesy post about love and that we *should* love. But I just had to get some things out...I hope that it helped someone out there maybe get through their "choice" of whether to love or not.

Take it from me...you can't NOT love! I tried it! And yeah, I became a huge pain...but I found that underneath all that wallflowerness (what a weird non-word that is) that I still loved and cared for everyone just the same as before! It doesn't work, folks! Go ahead and try...let me know how long you last. I didn't last that long before I realized it wasn't working. Thankfully, people didn't notice or say anything about how I shut them out! God is good. :) May He bless you richly as you go about your day...loving and caring for people without effort!